These Are The Days

Meet Grey Bunny.

2012-02-13T11:23:00.001-06:00

When Elijah was this age he was attached at the hip to his blue blanket he named BB. Now, Zeke is in LOVE with this furry friend. He can't talk yet to name him, so for right now we call him Grey Bunny. And these two are best friends! They go everywhere together. They can't even sleep without each other.

Bunny has been on lots of adventures... I have found him in the trash can, the dog's water, going down the slicky-slide, taking a ride in the dumptruck, shoved in the pantry, going for a trip in the toy shopping cart, peeking at himself in the mirror, putting strange objects onto his paws, and taking a dunk in the bathtub more than once.

The poor thing has been loved nearly to death. The ears stink from being sucked on and fur is matted down from so much petting and quite a few cycles through the washing machine. But Zeke's love for him is unconditional. If they spend any time apart, my little sweetheart squeals and runs to squeeze his chubby arms around his bunny when they are reunited. He is often seen toddling around the house with an ear (or two) in his mouth, taking bunny for a stroll. He also likes to point out his eyes and say "eye". They love to eat together - the bunny mostly acting as a catch-all for spills and crumbs. He does occasionally get a drink from the sippy cup or a bite, face-first, of pizza. Bunny loves to try on different accessories from time to time; such as blocks, cups, gloves, or socks on his ears and feet.

I love the way the love each other. And I just hope Zeke doesn't outgrow this friendship any time soon.

5:52 | Old

2012-02-02T12:25:00.000-06:00

This is St. Boniface Catholic church, est. 1881. It the place my mom attended grade school and where my parents were married in 1975.

4:52 | Close

2012-01-26T12:30:00.000-06:00

These two boys. I'm so thankful they are starting to really love each other. I hope they are best friends for life!

3:52 | New

2012-01-17T19:43:00.003-06:00

New Heart, New Spirit, New Life...
in the New Covenant because of Jesus.

Ezekiel 36:26 -Moreover, I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; and I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.

Ezekiel | 18 months old

2012-01-12T10:12:00.000-06:00

My adorable, energetic, baby is growing up way too fast. If you haven't seen the rest of his 18 month photo shoot pics, click here to see them on my photography blog. (If you wanna)

He's running, climbing, jumping, and in general keeping up with his big brother in most areas.

He has a ravenous appetite and LOVES to eat. (the polar opposite of Elijah) He wakes up in the morning and within 5 minutes he's standing at the gate crying to go downstairs to eat. Any time of day, open the fridge and he comes running! And he's not too picky... although he hates mashed potatoes.

He is crazy about his blue and brown soft blanket that my Grandma Theresa got him before he was born. He never sleeps without it.

His best stuffed friend is a fluffy grey bunny that Grandma Gloria sent last Easter. (The bunny gets his own post later.) Not only the bunny, but he really has an affinity for animals. Particularly my Mom's cat and our dog Annie. I think the animals know he loves them, because they normally tend to tolerate his "petting", which sometimes includes a gentle love pat or pull of the tail. And for Annie it usually means a good goosing in the rear end since she has no tail to shield herself. :)

At his 18 month check-up he weighed 24.4 pounds (57th percentile), and was 32 inches tall (33rd percentile).

He loves music and dances when he hears any sort of tune.

He can sit in his room near the book shelf and read books by himself for nearly an hour if uninterrupted.

Though he's not talking as much as I would have expected, I've been told this is normal for a second child. His brother does all his talking for him. He says... Mama, Dada, Elijah (Die-die-za), Moo, eye, eet (for tweet), bye-bye, hi, kee-kee (kitty).

He pretend counts by pointing his tiny index finger at the pages and making sounds that mimick my intonation when I count.

He consistently signs for more, milk, and bird.

He enjoys his Baby Einstein videos, but always always cries when they show a polar bear. Even it its just a puppet. He finds them frightening apparently. And he laughs hysterically when they show the scene of a basket of apples falling onto the monkey's head.

He is similar to Elijah in that while they watch TV together, they both stand inches from it with their hands behind their back, swaying back and forth in concentration.

Oh, and he LOVES Elijah so much... follows him around, cries when Elijah wants to be left alone, and asks about him when they aren't together. I so much want for them to be best friends as they grow up. Now, if only Elijah could learn to be more tolerant of his little brother.

2:52 | Circle

2012-01-10T19:42:00.001-06:00

Just playing around with some sunlight.

Christmas 2011 (part 1)

2011-12-31T21:03:00.004-06:00

I'm going to try to keep this short and to the point. For one thing I'm suffering from a tripple-whammy... migraine, inner ear infection, and cutting this dang wisdom tooth. I have a crazy case of vertigo all the time, which makes for some interesting walking up and down the stairs holding Zeke. Anyway, Christmas happened. It was awesome (Elijah's exact words). Here's how it went down, starting with Christmas Eve.

Christmas Eve was a Saturday so Elijah went to play in the yard with my parents (it was a gorgeous day) and Manny was off work so he and I got last minute things done around the house. Later, when it got dark out, we took the boys over to Fantasy of Lights, a very pretty display thru a park. Santa was working at the entrance gate passing out candy canes. So Elijah took the opportunity to shout his questions out the window. 1) Where did you park your sleigh? 2) Where are the reindeer? To which Santa chuckled and replied "over there behind that building in the parking lot". Obviously. The boys really enjoyed the light display. Zeke sat back there "talking" the whole time in his little sing-song way. I wish I could describe what it sounds like. Kind of like "eeh-eh" I guess. Only he slides up at the end like a siren. I think we'll all be thrilled when he figures out how to put words together.

After that we drove around town looking at some of the neighborhoods with lots of lights. At home I got to work on the Christmas breakfast menu while the boys played and watched the Veggie Tales St. Nick movie. When that was done Zeke went to sleep and Elijah, Manny, and I watched Polar Express and drank hot chocolate. It was a cozy and perfect way to end Christmas Eve with our sweet Elijah. He fell asleep before the end of the movie.

Ugh, nevermind. I'll tell the rest of the story tomorrow or something. Too tired now. It's New Year's Eve and I'm calling lights out at 9:20. Which totally beats our NYE 2 years ago when Manny and I were both throwing up all night. No bueno.

So, Happy New Year everyone.

Nut Club Nuts

2011-12-27T11:22:00.002-06:00

The West Side Nut Club is a group of Evansville businessmen who do philanthropic things around town (like the Fall Festival). Every December they all get dressed up in outlandish costumes and parade themselves with goodies and Christmas cheer to residents in a nearby nursing home. Since our office is 3 doors down from their headquarters, we have the good fortune of witnessing this parade every year. This time my boys happened to be around. One of the Nut-Clubbers was kind enough to provide us with a few snaps. Ezekiel wasn't a fan, however.

But Elijah saw this as his opportunity to ask Santa a few questions that had been weighing on his mind.... "How far is the North Pole from here? How do you get there? How did you decide on all the reindeer's names?"

December: catch-up

2011-12-27T09:29:00.008-06:00

Ok, so I blinked and we've gone from Thanksgiving to now after Christmas. There has been a whirlwind of activity with our family and it seems I haven't made time to talk about it... what, with all the doing of it. I can't even begin to list all the happenings. Just the highlights, perhaps?

Earlier this month Elijah had several special events in his life...

1) He got to sing 3 Christmas songs with his Sunday School class in "big church". He was great! Especially the part where he spotted me in the crowd and shouted "Hey Mom! I just love John Deere tractors! Oh look... Grandma and Grandma! Hey Grandmas!" It was such a proud moment for me.

2) I was the party mom for his pre-K class Christmas party. Oh boy, what a time. We made picture frame crafts, ate Rudolph and frosty donuts, sang songs, and played a trivia game.
{here's Elijah in his classroom}

{and with some of his classmates}

3) He got to go to his very first concert. One of the big churches here in town does a huge Christmas production on a Friday night. We went on a "date" together - out to eat w/my parents and grandparents - he even opened the door for me, my little gentleman. The concert was beautiful. They had a full orchestra, children's choir, adult choir, soloists, duets, all sorts of other special music, and his favorite part - the organist. (why?) We really had a special time together that night.

4) His school Christmas program happened. It was a long ordeal for such young kids - over an hour. He was one of the shepherds in the nativity. His class did 5 or 6 songs I think. It was really cute. Again, he saw me in the crowd and shouted "Hey Mom, I love you! Are you going to take my picture or what!?"

5) He got a haircut.

6) He's been doing a lot of baking with my Mom, my Grandma and me. There must have been 50 dozen cookies - no joking. He's a wonderful helper too, very good in the kitchen.

I'm cutting a wisdom tooth. How stupid... and painful.

Zeke got a buzz haircut and now looks so grown up! He's really thinning out - tall and lean now in stead of my chubby round baby.

For most of December its been unseasonably warm here. So nice, in fact, that I haven't even gotten my heavy coat out yet. Elijah has been doing a lot of "putzing" around with my Dad at their house. You know, the usual. Firewood, feeding birds, raking stuff, fixing stuff, pushing wheelbarrows, burning brush piles, cleaning gutters and such.

Speaking of gutters... my 4-year-old normally very cautious son decided to climb a latter up to my parents' roof the other weekend. My dad was up there, but way on the other side of the house. When my mom discovered him he was straddling the ridge vent just hanging out by himself. It's a doggone good thing I wasn't there because a few words might have escaped my mouth that I would later have regretted.

I've taken these past few weeks off from photography (business-wise) and it's been so nice to focus more of my time on family. I had almost forgotten what it was like to have weekends free and not to edit until the wee hours of the night. But I'll be getting back into the swing of things soon. I have a newborn session this week - can't wait to get my hands on her!! I'm going to try to take off until late February with a few small exceptions.

Ragon (my foster-sister) got engaged to Chris last week. There aren't any plans for the wedding yet - I think they're saying sometime in 2013. He's a nice guy though and they are both over the moon, so that's the important thing.

I'll talk about Christmas Eve/Day later. That's a whole post in itself.

my boys

2011-12-06T19:39:00.002-06:00

Sometimes a girl just needs to take pictures of her own family. I've been so neglectful of them lately. I'm trying to do better though!

"all done" + a black eye

2011-12-01T21:47:00.004-06:00

Ezekiel is 16 months old now and he's really not talking very much. At least not compared to what Elijah was saying by this age. Zeke says your typical mama, dadda, Elijah, bye-bye, hi, and muh (for more - only sometimes). But tonight after dinner Manny asked him if he was ready to get down from the table and he both signed and said "all done". It sounded like "ahh-duuuh", in a little sing-song tone. So cute. Then of course we made over him and he repeated it several more times. I'm relieved to know that he's going to catch up eventually.

Also, a few days ago he fell into the coffee table at my mom's house and got a terrible black eye. It's healing now, but here's what it looks like tonight...

The very next day he and Elijah were playing on the bed and Elijah somehow bounced off the pillows and head-butted Zeke. So now Elijah has a shiner to match and Zeke has a big goose egg on his forehead. You should have heard the screaming and hysteria coming from the playroom when it happened. I thought for sure someone had lost a limb or something.

My boys... they better toughen up if they're going to play so rough with each other.

photography challenge: day 23

2011-11-23T07:44:00.000-06:00

sunflare

This is possibly one of my favorite photos I've taken. It was a few weeks ago when I was on my way to an early morning shoot. The mist was rising over the fields near my home at sunrise.

Photography Challenge : day 20

2011-11-20T10:00:00.000-06:00

Bokeh.

(In case you're wondering what that means... it's the creamy smooth background part of the image, when the lens is set to an extremely large aperture, or shallow depth of field.)

Christmas Stocking List

2011-11-14T13:34:00.002-06:00

Oh, you know I'm already thinking about Christmas. I want to really make this season special for my boys. For one thing Elijah is starting to understand it and I know from this year on he'll remember how we spend the holiday season as a family.

One tradition I'm going to start is making a Stocking List (it's like a bucket list, only use a stocking. Get it?). Elijah and I are drumming up some good ideas and activities to put in our stocking. So every time I have a day off we'll take one out and do it! How fun does that sound?! Yay!

Here are some of my ideas:

Bake cookies
Put up the tree and decorations
Make a Christmas craft
Make homemade gifts for family
Go caroling
Drive around to look at lights
Fill an Operation Christmas Child box
See Santa at the mall
Go sledding
See a Christmas program
Paint Christmas pictures
Make homemade caramel corn
Drink mulled cider
Make a batch of homemade hot cocoa
Make homemade ornaments

Any other must-do ideas? I'm open to suggestions!

Photography Challenge: day 14

2011-11-14T07:00:00.000-06:00

eyes

these ones belong to me

Photography Challenge: day 13

2011-11-13T21:02:00.000-06:00

Yourself with 13 things

The contents of my desk while editing this evening...
1. 18-55mm lens
2. lens cap
3. 50mm lens
4. mouse
5. empty water glass
6. pen
7. ponytail holder
8. flosser (I'm addicted to flossing my teeth!)
9. card case
10. empty cereal bowl from my 9:00 pm snack
11, 12, 13. memory cards

Photography Challenge: day 12

2011-11-12T10:26:00.000-06:00

sunset

I took this last Spring behind my house. After it had rained all day the sun came out just long enough to give us a lovely colorful sky before dipping behind the trees.

Photography Challenge: day 11

2011-11-11T08:00:00.000-06:00

something blue

My mid-morning snack plate.

Photography Challenge: day 10

2011-11-10T08:16:00.000-06:00

Childhood Memory

Every single day, for the first 20 years of my life I watched my mom make our meals in these pans. They have since been retired, but new stainless steel just can't compete with the sturdy design and lovely yellow enamel on these bad boys. I bet they'll outlive us all. (They were a wedding gift to my parents in 1973.)

Photography Challenge: day 9

2011-11-09T08:00:00.002-06:00

someone you love

Well, isn't it obvious? My boys! Of course, I love my husband and my family too. But frankly, these 2 are helpless against my snap-happiness in their direction so photos of them are a'plenty. :)

Photography Challenge: day 8

2011-11-08T22:21:00.005-06:00

a bad habit

See those ragged, bitten, unkempt finger nails? Yep. That's my bad habit. That, and eating ice cream late at night, road-rage (just kidding, sort of), and leaving baskets of clean laundry at the foot of my bed.

Photography Challenge: day 7

2011-11-07T23:10:00.000-06:00

fruit: pumpkins are fruit... right?

Photography Challenge - day 6

2011-11-06T09:25:00.003-06:00

from a low angle

This picture of Zeke makes me laugh because of the glob of drool that's about to land on my face below him! :) Ah, motherhood!

Photography Challenge - day 5

2011-11-05T09:19:00.002-05:00

something from a high angle

My sweet little buddy playing in leaves on a glorious warm fall day. Yes, that stick went directly into his mouth.

Photography Challenge: day 4

2011-11-04T16:35:00.002-05:00

something green

I live in a wooded area. Moss grows here on anything wooden. This is the top of my neighbor's mailbox.

Photography Challenge - day 3

2011-11-03T09:17:00.003-05:00

clouds

You knew I couldn't pick just one.

Compare

2011-11-02T09:15:00.002-05:00

Mom's Day: 6:30am - 10:30pm

Wake up
shower
dress
pack lunch
pack diaper bag
gather items for the day
wake children
dress children
administer sippy cups to children
make coffee
let dog out to potty
carry bags/purse/lunch/coats/school folder, etc to car
put children in car/ fasten seat belts
drop children off at baby sitter's (Mom)
drive to work
work 8:00-2:30
leave work
pick up child from preschool
"quick" trip to grocery store
pick up child from baby sitter's
drive home
unload children/bags/coats/junk, etc. carry into house
let dog out to potty
give snacks to children
tidy up living room/ dining room
start load of laundry
change diaper
put baby down for nap
carry another basket of laundry downstairs
play cars/blocks/trains, etc.
tidy up bedrooms
put child down for nap
hang laundry on line
feed dog and cats
check email/ reply to messages
work on editing photos
baby wakes up, change diaper
refill sippy cup
entertain baby
clean up kitchen
wash some dishes
retrieve baby from stairs/dog's water/trashcan/toilet (x20)
make supper (usually with baby on hip)
boy wakes up from nap
refill another cup
take laundry off line, fold, carry basket upstairs
act as referee: tell children not to take toys away/hit/push/throw (x12)
carry trash out
clear off kitchen table
let dog out to potty
greet husband home from work
finish supper
ask everyone to sit at table
serve children's food
ask children to sit at table again
serve my own food
ask children to sit again, or else
refill cups again
feed baby
threaten to spank child if he doesn't eat
get up to get napkins
eat cold supper
clear table
wipe children's faces/hands
wipe down table
wash dishes
clean up messes that children made while I was doing the kitchen
run bath water
strip clothes off children
bathe children
retrieve pjs
drain tub, pick up bath toys
dry children
dry off bathroom floor
chase down children with pjs - force their wiggling bodies into pjs
play blocks/cars/Lincoln logs/firetrucks
ask husband to come help with teeth-brushing and bedtime
tidy up children's bedrooms
locate lost "little duck", which is vital for bedtime
escort child back to bathroom to brush teeth and potty
read books with baby
rock baby
sing to baby
kiss cheeks and put baby to bed
tuck in, pray with, and kiss other child goodnight
work on Bible Study homework
put on my pjs
let dog out to potty
brush teeth, etc.
gather up stuff for tomorrow by back door
wipe down kitchen counters
put randomly located sippy cups away
lock up house
turn off lights
trip over firetruck in stairway
put a few toys away
pick up clothes from bedroom floor
collapse in exhaustion!

Dad's Day 7:30am - 11:30 pm
Wake up
shower & dress
walk out door
work 9-5
drive home from work
sit down at table, eat supper
move to computer, do "Lord only knows what" on there
assist with teeth-brushing
tuck in child
move back to computer to again do "Lord only knows what"
throw clothes on floor
go to bed
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Does something not quite seem fair about this to anyone else?

Photography Challenge - day 2

2011-11-02T09:13:00.000-05:00

what you wore today - purple socks

Photography Challenge - day 1

2011-11-01T23:05:00.001-05:00

self portrait

Ok, so I took this a few months ago when the weather was hot and the pool was beckoning. But wouldn't we all love to remember that time? I do!

Photography Challenge

2011-11-01T23:00:00.000-05:00

coming soon........

That's what he said: engineer

2011-11-01T21:55:00.003-05:00

E: Mom, what's an engineer?

me: It's someone who designs and makes things.

E: Oh, so God is an engineer then.

me: Yes, He sure is!

E: Yep, He's the BEST engineer because He made EVERYTHING!

Seeking first

2011-10-31T19:13:00.006-05:00

I've done 11 shoots in under a week. 3 more coming up this week. And I still have a "day job" plus a family to look after when I'm not "working" (haha). Oh yes I'm loving it, to be sure. But you guys, I'm tiggity-iggered. I'm seeing signs of neglect in my home (that ~~pile~~ mountain of laundry. dirty bathroom, eww.) and I'm hearing complaints from my husband. I need to find balance in all this.

When this photography adventure began I thought I might be lucky to do one shoot a month, maybe two. But I'm busier than I ever dreamed. What I love about the whole situation is that I didn't force it. I didn't set out to pursue photography or drum up business. There was never a moment when I said "You know what, I think I'll be a photographer now". I just made myself available to whatever happened. I've given my best effort and now I'm having a blast! And I'm learning so much (the more you learn, the more you understand that you don't know anything!). The most wonderful part is that I'm seeing the Lord's hand in this. It's clear to me that I'm going the direction He wants me to go. I just need to work on being a better steward of my time.

For now I'll keep on doing my best, ingesting all things photography, and trying to balance my family and work. But you know what... "Seek ye FIRST the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added unto you." So what I really need to pouring myself into is knowing, loving, obeying, and seeking after my Lord. Then whatever else comes my way, I know I trust Him for it.

Yes, officer.

2011-10-30T22:06:00.001-05:00

Elijah is going as a police officer this year for Halloween. He LOVEEEES his costume! Wanted to wear it all day and to bed. Zeke is going as a cow, because that's what I have from when Elijah was his size. Lazy for baby #2? Why, yes officer I sure am.

Clickety-Clack

2011-10-26T20:09:00.000-05:00

Oh boy. Oh boy. Oh boy!

I may have been motion sick for 5 hours on Saturday, but it was totally worth riding in the back seat of my parents car, then on a rickety-rockety-train up and down and swerving around hills and valleys. Because my son was OUT OF HIS MIND thrilled beyond comprehension with our outing!

We took a day-trip with my parents to French Lick, Ind. to ride the "old fashioned steam train" as he called it. I cannot even begin to describe the enthusiasm with which Elijah approached the day. He spun out of his bed before the sun was up and practically tripped over his feet down the stairs and out the door to leave. He was literally bouncing. Standing in my parents' kitchen waiting for it to be time to leave, he jiggled and danced, and spun like a top. He raced around and around the house, shouting, and chattering without ceasing.

It was without a doubt the best day of his 4 year old existence! After the train ride we got to check out an assortment of freight cars, engines, and cabooses. (one of which he fell off and hit his back on the stairs pretty hard, but he was okay)

Zekers had a great time too. On the ride back he conked out in my arms.
But not before he stuck his nose to the glass a few times.
What a day! We had so much fun!

I was gonna...

2011-10-25T11:49:00.003-05:00

Oh man. I had planned on buying PS Elements to do a little photo editing. I've been saving my pennies and have enough to get it now. But last night I downloaded the free trial just to see what I think. And I'm not loving it. Maybe I just don't know the features yet, but I find it slow. And there are only a few things that I can't already do on the software that came with my camera. Right, I know. I'm showing my lack of experience by saying that. I just am not a big fan of post-production. I would rather be able to take a good photo straight out of the camera and let it speak for itself. Yeah, there is a time for changing white balance, contrast, doing a little crop here or there, maybe brightening faces or sometimes noise reduction. But should I be doing more? I have a feeling the answer is yes. If I learn to edit my images I would probably be happier with the final product. But you know what... I don't sell my images (at this point in my life), I sell my time. So I'm not super concerned about tweaking them. It's time-consuming and I don't have much of that to spare. On the contrary, I can't be distributing photos that I'm not proud of. A person's work builds the reputation.

What to do? I need advise. Lightroom or Elements? Or ACR? Or... what the heck is the difference anyway?

One Little Monkey

2011-10-21T22:19:00.002-05:00

On Saturday my Ezekiel was helping me fold laundry on my bed. Somehow when I had my head turned, he threw his body onto the pillows which catapulted him off the other side of the bed. I didn't see him land but I knew it was bad because it took him a good 20 seconds to start crying. By the time I made it over to him he was laying on his side not moving. It was terrifying! I couldn't tell if any body parts were broken. Nothing looked strange, swollen, red, bloody, or dislocated. But he cried for the remainder of the day, and most of the night.

After the initial hysteria wore off and the Advil took effect, I was able to get a better look. He was able to move his limbs, but he really didn't want me to touch his legs. Changing his diaper and lifting his legs to wipe him caused an all-out wail. He also stopped putting weight on his feet altogether. Where he had been walking the day before, he wouldn't even try to stand or even crawl.

So Sunday morning, after getting my friend's opinion that we needed to have a doctor check him, I decided a trip to the ER for x-rays was in order. So much fun! We were there over 3 hours and in the end they never found the cause for his pain. Thankfully the x-rays showed no broken bones. It's possible that when he landed he could have jammed or bruised his hip, twisted or pulled something in his knee, or hyper-extended his leg. Either way, whatever hurt him wasn't visible to the doctor.

I guess for Zeke's first trip to the ER he got away with a very easy diagnosis. It wasn't my favorite way to spend half of our Sunday, but I'm just glad he's not seriously injured. And I'll not be allowing him on the bed to help me with laundry any more!

p.s. He seems to be fine now. But he hasn't gone back to fully walking yet. A little gun-shy perhaps?

That's what he said: Teeth, God, and Prayers

2011-10-21T22:03:00.006-05:00

Discussing with Elijah the importance of brushing one's teeth:
E: "But Mom, maybe just not tonight?"
Me: "No Elijah, we all have to brush our teeth every day, and it will only take a minute."
E: "Everyone?"
Me: "Yes."
E: "Well, does God have to brush His teeth?"
Me: "No. God doesn't have teeth."
E: "WHAT? He doesn't?????" (scandalized!)
Me: "Nope, He doesn't have a body, so he doesn't have teeth. God is Spirit."
E: "Yeah! Like when I die, God will take my spirit away to Heaven. That's what Mrs. Godshall said."
Me: "Yes, you do have a spirit. And if you trust in Jesus that's the part of you that will live on in Heaven after your body dies."
E: "Yeah and if God doesn't need to brush His teeth then maybe I don't have to."

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During our morning drive to drop the boys at my Mom's house:
E: "Mom, will you pray for me?"
Me: "Sure honey." (we pray...)
E: "Amen.... um, but Mom?"
Me: "huh?"
E: "You forgot to pray for me to go to school."
Me: "Oh, ok." (we pray for him to have a good day at school, etc.)
E: "Amen! Yep. That ought'a get it!"

T E E T H I N G - S T I N K S !

2011-10-20T21:38:00.002-05:00

I show you this photo, not as evidence that I'm the type of mother who will pick up the camera when her baby is wailing rather than pick up the baby himself. But I would like you to take a look at that bottom row of teeth.

Those wicked, wicked teeth! Since the first of October my poor child has gone from having 4 to 7 on the bottom. And that's not counting the other molar that just peeked out on the bottom right side.

And I think, but don't hold me to this, that he cut 2 on the top. It might be 3, but he never lets me look long enough to count. So by my calculations, less than 3 weeks ago he had 8 teeth. Today he has 14 (or maybe 15). This explains a lot of the above-pictured crankiness we've been enduring these past weeks. I'm just hoping, for all of our sakes, that it's over soon.

Stepping on up

2011-10-20T21:30:00.007-05:00

I cannot believe I didn't discuss how Ezekiel started walking a week ago today (it was Thursday, Oct. 13). Bad Mommy.

Anyway, he had been standing independently for long periods of time and taking 2 or 3 steps for the past month or so. But we knew it would just be a matter of time before he realized he could use those two skills combined to mobilize. It was funny the way it happened. After Bible study at church last week I was at one end of the hall getting our stuff together and he was playing at the other w/some kids. He wanted to go outside so he stood at the doors and started crying. When he saw that no one was letting him out he just turned around and stood there. Then miss Maggie Browning (a few months older than Zeke) toddled past him. He took off after her and before he realized what happened he was half way down the hall. I just stared at him, afraid if I did anything he'd freak out or fall. So I just smiled at him and held out my arms. He saw me and started clapping for himself. Then he started saying his famous "uh-huh" in that squeaky little tone over and over.

So for his first official steps he walked the length of the hallway, rounded the corner and made it almost to the next classroom. Big stuff.

He was a little shy at first, but then he realized this walking stuff is pretty fun.

Unfortunately, a little accident caused him to totally give up walking for the past 5 days. I'll talk about that later. The important thing is that he learned he can do it! Yay Zeke!!

School Picture Day

2011-10-14T22:22:00.002-05:00

I was going to ask who the handsomest boy in the class is. But that's just a silly question! Isn't it obvious?!

p.s. WHO is this boy anyway? And what has he done with my baby? I barely recognize my Elijah.

Big days ahead!

2011-10-13T21:57:00.006-05:00

Big day around these parts! We have lots of stuff going on. Such as...

Ezekiel took off walking at church this morning after Bible study and hasn't slowed down since. We had been saying for weeks that once he figures out he can do it there will be no stopping him! It's so cute to see.

My Mom's birthday is next week and Dad surprised her tonight at dinner with the announcement that they were leaving in 2 hours for Destin (their favorite place!). She was so surprised! I had already packed their bags and gotten all their snacks for the road. So all she had to do was make sure it was all there and load it into the car. They left 2 hours ago so they'll be on the beach for sunrise in the morning. I'm thrilled for them!

I'm planning a fund raiser for the missionaries supported by my church. I'll be doing 14 mini photo sessions on October 29th with the proceeds going to our mission fund. It's thrilling and frightening at the same time. I feel very ill equipped. But I realize this is what God has been asking me to do for quite a while, and as I step out in obedience He will provide what I need. Plus, it just feels so good to be in His will. You know? Read more info about that here.

I'm about to get involved with a really exciting project through one of our missionaries, Marco and Sherrie deFelice in Italy. They are working on making videos to teach English as a second language. Part of this includes using photos to reinforce vocabulary words, which is where I come in. I'll be given assignments - lists of objects or actions needed, and I'll take the photos and send them to Marco to be included in the lessons. I love the opportunity to help with the project, to gain experience, and learn along the way. I've already received my first assignment and can't wait to get started!

Grandparents = LOVE!

2011-10-11T00:17:00.005-05:00

p.s. Zeke turned 15 months old yesterday.

Fall Festival Festivities: part 2

2011-10-10T19:02:00.003-05:00

traditional chuck-wagon pic

yellow jeep
There were 6 cars available and he chose to sit next to the only other child on the ride.
Went down this baby about 14 times consecutively.
seeing the view
from on top
in the Ferris wheel

We stand here every year for a picture.
Watching the pet parade.
One last train ride!

Yes, he was laughing. :)

The end.

Fall Festival Festivities: part 1

2011-10-04T09:26:00.003-05:00

{West Franklin St. from the roof of our office.}

It's that time of year again... Fall Festival week here on the west side of Evansville. (directly outside my door at work) It's pretty exciting for all of us, but this year Elijah is absolutely beside himself with enthusiasm! Yesterday he ate a corn on the cob and french fries, which he will most likely repeat every day this week. I took him on 3 rides in the kiddie park... the train (obviously), old fashioned cars, and motorcycles. We're going to get a bracelet and let him ride rides until his little heart's content sometime before its over too. That's the main event for him!

Zeke had a great time riding around in his little car and checking everything out. His mouth hung open most of the afternoon. Sensory overload. He had his first sausage burger, the corn breading off a corn dog, some french fries, some baked potato, and maybe a bite of apple fritter. One thing I love about that kid, he will try almost anything.

As for me, I had my old favorite, the USI booth's steak sandwich for lunch. But then for supper I tried 2 new things; barbecue stuffed baked potato (very good), and deep fried oreos (WOW!). Today I think I'll have some fried green beans and maybe a deep fried snickers... or buckeyes, or fudge, or pumpkin muffin, or a monster ear, or corn on the cob, or fried cookie dough, or, or, or...

flashlight art

2011-09-26T20:50:00.001-05:00

Backward cursive is harder than you'd think.

It's a'going.

2011-09-25T20:29:00.003-05:00

Things with my little photog venture are getting pretty steady. I've had shoots the last several weekends, was supposed to have one today but it got rain delayed (it’s been pouring non-stop for 48 hours here!).

This coming week is going to be busy! I have a newborn session on Tuesday, 2 toddlers on Thursday, 2 sessions; a family and a couple on Saturday, and a 6 month old on Sunday. Whew. If I’m not tired after that it will be a miracle. But this is really so much fun! I’m just throwing myself into learning everything I can about photography technique, how to understand light, use my camera the best way, give people a good session experience, edit, etc. I am praying that God blesses the efforts of my hands and allows me to continue. I’m just starting and I’m having a blast!

Also, I’m about to die waiting for my new lens to arrive. Should be tomorrow maybe? It's gonna be a fun week. Updates to come on the photography blog!

33 seems okay so far

2011-09-24T23:26:00.003-05:00

[traditional Italian cream cake for my birthday]

Despite the pouring rain and beginnings of colder weather, today wasn't half bad. If you know me and my history with birthdays, this is no small feat.

I spent most of the day with my Mom, the boys, my sister Chyna, and her son just hanging out and playing with the kids. We cooked and there was cake... oh, the yummiest cake you'll ever eat! Thanks Mom!

Manny had to work today, but this evening he took me out for a delish dinner at Bonefish. Then we went to buy my tripod - his birthday gift to me. (Of course, while at Targe7 I picked up 3 cute new tops too.)

From Mom and Dad, Gloria, (and some of the money I've been saving up from photo shoots) I ordered my new lens online a few days ago. I can't wait for it to arrive! It's 28mm f/2.8. Not the fastest they make in a 28mm, but fast enough for me, for the price.

So, I guess we're off to a pretty good start for this year of my life.
Now, Bed.

just'a swingin'

2011-09-23T16:47:00.002-05:00

Thing Two

2011-09-19T22:24:00.004-05:00

Ezekiel is alllllmost walking. He's taken a few steps on several occasions with the right motivation. And this afternoon he took what I'd consider his first real steps - 4 in a row. But he hasn't gone running off across a room quite yet. I'd give him another 2 days and he'll be unstoppable.

I'm seeing in him some of the strange tendencies that Elijah has. I'm unsure if these are learned or just happened upon him by nature. For instance, he wants any cars or trains he plays with to be lined up end to end with one another.

He prefers toys and objects in order. And I am not kidding when I tell you this: after dumping out a box of dominoes, he put every single one of them back in the box where it belonged.

I think he's about to hit a big growth spurt. He's eating like a madman! Yesterday he ate 2 bowls of chili, some crackers, a handful of grapes, and a roll for lunch. Then today for lunch he had a piece of fried chicken, a bowl of pasta salad, and a can of tuna salad. Not only is he eating in mass quantities, but he's eating strange stuff for a baby. Who ever heard of a 1-year-old LOVING chili and tuna salad? Weirdo.

And of course, if you put popcorn within a 10 foot radius of him, its in his mouth in no time flat. [See evidence below.]

Thing One

2011-09-16T11:27:00.003-05:00

Elijah was reprimanded in the car for talking back to Manny. He was very repentant and sorry. He became quite for a minute, then perked up with this:

"Oh! I know! I have a great idea. Let's just try to start over. All you need is a super duper helper camera. And you take it up to space. And then. Then you push this button on it and it makes the earth go back and start today over again."

I can see how he would see this as a perfect solution for his problem. Go back, get a do-over, and next time don't talk back. It's genius.
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He's a spelling maniac lately. His favorite words today are: tree, train, truck, green, red, blue, yellow, go, stop, hop, all, and bee.
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Over the past week I've seen a real improvement in his ability to write and draw "freehand" without tracing. Before he would always tell me he didn't want to try to write his name because he would mess up and he didn't want to do it if he couldn't do it right. Seriously. A perfectionist at age 4. But his PreK teacher has been working with him and he now writes all the letters of his name very well. He also is GREAT at drawing triangles, circles, squares, staying in the lines (completely) when coloring or painting, and cutting on the line. School is doing him some good.
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Yesterday we had this conversation in the car:
"Mom, where is Heaven?
"Well, I supposed its in another dimension that we can't see with our eyes until we get there. Why were you thinking about Heaven?"
"Oh, because I was thinking about God. And that He lives there."...
"What made you think about God?"...
"I don't know. That's just the way life is. Sometimes I just think about God."
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Then last night I heard: "Look! I got 3 yellow squares in a row on this aerobics cube!" (Rubik cube) I tell you what, if he works that Rubik cube, I don't care what it costs, I'm putting him in a special school!

adjournment

2011-09-14T09:19:00.008-05:00

The nights have been much cooler this past week, although yesterday we enjoyed an afternoon above the 90 degree mark. The thermometer in the water read 80 degrees, but I swear it was colder than that so I couldn't stay long. However, there was no way I was going to pass up our final swim of the season! Elijah did a couple of cannonballs, while I swam my laps fast and hard to get the blood pumping. We finally emerged, invigorated, with goosebumps and slightly blue lips. With the days cooling down now I doubt we'll have another opportunity to take a dip.

How I hate saying goodbye to Summer. Long, hot days. Evenings filled with the sounds of crickets and tree frogs, lightning bugs, and sitting on the porch until dark. Staying in the pool until we nearly fall asleep from exhaustion. Ice cream cones at Big Top, watermelon every day, blooming gardens, bountiful fresh produce, tanktops and sunburns. Sweet, warm air on my skin. Life-filled, wonderful, happy Summer!

The thought of Fall approaching makes me so sad. Not that I don't enjoy what the season brings, you know... leaves, pumpkins, bonfires, hayrides, apples, festivals, sweatshirts. But I know (oh dread of my soul) that Winter is so soon to follow. Gray, ugly, dead, wet Winter.

Winter is the bane of my existence. I can tell you right now that when I'm old enough, I'll be one of those silver-haired ladies who spends January through April in a southern state away from all the gloom and drizzle. You're sure to see me walking a beach some morning in hideous elastic-waist floral pants and tennis shoes with socks up to the middle of my calf. And I won't care what you think, because I'll be in the sunshine and I'll be happy.

Oh ugh.

2011-09-11T22:52:00.005-05:00

There are times when I feel truly embarrassed about trying to learn and do photography. Right. I'm nuts because that's a ridiculous way to feel. I guess its because I know how far I need to come. And I'm completely aware of where I would like to improve. At least I'm under no false pretense that I'm some sort of professional or anything. I don't know why I feel that by my mentioning my pursuit of a dream should make me want to offer some sort of apology about it. As if my doing so is offensive to anyone at all. Is it?

Goodness sakes. I'm such a dork. This is how I always felt about speaking Spanish too. There was always someone who knew more, could trill the r just a little bit better, had a more authentic accent (but mine was pretty nice), or what-have-you. And no matter how fluent I became, or how fast I could congugate a verb, or figure out the blessed subjunctive tense (I loathe it) I never felt confident. I was always thinking about that one person who probably would know exactly when I would make a mistake. Who would be thinking to herself how much better she was than me. And the mere thought of being not quite perfect made me shy away from my passion for the language. When what I should have done was admit to myself that I was gifted in that area, try to grow as much as possible, and be thankful for the abilities I have. But oh no, I had to always be comparing myself to the rest. When will I ever learn?

I think I need to do a little getting over it, and quick. I can't go through life always sizing myself up against everyone else. I need to follow my path regardless of what I think anyone else thinks about it. And if truth be told, I bet no one else even has an opinion this way or that. I need to stop feeling so self-conscious and relax. I need to be happy with what opportunities I've been given and make the most of them. I need to stop putting so much pressure on myself to be perfect. Stop being internally critical. I'm giving myself a headache. I think I've been grinding my teeth at night too.

I mean, for crying out loud. I did two shoots today and both people were very happy with their photos. And it's all about meeting those expectations. Um, hum.

So that's what's on my mind this evening. Que te vaya bien.

Zeke and the Watermelon

2011-09-09T21:25:00.000-05:00

son-flower

2011-09-08T20:40:00.008-05:00

In the month of June my Mom and Elijah went to a garden sale where they met a lady who gave Elijah a tiny packet of seeds and a notebook. His assignment was to plant and water the seeds, then write down his observations about how the little sunflowers grew and grew.
I think he only made 3 entries in his notebook, what with being so busy in the new pool and all.

But here we are in the month of September, now enjoying the lovely blooms on his plants. The fruit of his labor. He's pretty proud of that green thumb we keep telling him he has.

{How tall are your sunflowers, Elijah?}

new lens

2011-09-08T19:50:00.000-05:00

I got a little goodie in the mail today! My 50mm f/1.8 lens and 3 filters. I cannot wait to get out there and try this honey out. I did get to practice for about 20 minutes today and I can already tell this is the start of a beautiful friendship. :)

Zeke's fun afternoon

2011-09-07T10:15:00.003-05:00

First story

2011-09-07T09:44:00.005-05:00

Zac is a rat.
Zac sat on a can.
The ants ran to the jam.
Zac had a fan.
The ants ran and ran.
Zac had a nap.

I am one proud Mommy! My Elijah read me this story a few days ago. Now, I knew he could read several words. We've been working on basic phonics and spelling for a while now. But I've never seen him read whole sentences. I coudn't believe it! I was so excited and proud that I kissed his whole face, to which he replied "Mom, stop kissing my ear."

realizing goals

2011-09-06T11:36:00.005-05:00

I mentioned before how my husband is doing P90X. He's one month into it and has lost 13 pounds, and 2 inches around the tummy. (which is 33% of the way to his goal) I'm so proud of him! He's been working so hard at eating right and exercising. Go Manny! His hand continues to improve too. He is slowly gaining strength and mobility in it.

And as for me, I ordered a new lens yesterday... 50mm f/1.8. It's not too expensive, but I've read good things about it. And I cannot wait to get it and start practicing. I have 2 shoots this weekend and maybe I'll be practiced enough by then to use it! Oh, I hope! And I ordered 3 filters too: a UV, a Polarized, and a Fluorescent. Fun stuff.

Next on my wish-list: a tripod (not a huge deal), the 85mm f/1.8, and the designated lens hood for my 50mm.

2011-08-31T21:08:00.001-05:00

That's What He Said: on love and marriage

2011-08-30T11:30:00.008-05:00

"Hey Elijah, do you have a girlfriend in your PreK class?
[confusion]
"Um... no. [pause several beats. then face lights up] But I do have a Grandma Debby!"

My sweet boy just adores his Grandma. He asked me recently if I'll marry him when he grows up. I had to turn him down and explain I'm already married to Daddy. I watched his brow furrow and he became silent for a moment. Then he looked slightly less disappointed and replied "Well that's ok. I'll just marry Grandma Debby in stead."

insecure

2011-08-29T13:32:00.005-05:00

I ordered some sample business cards today. They're pretty cool. But doing so makes me kind of nervous. What if I'm jumping the gun? What if no one really wants me to photograph them and I'm making a big mistake? Am I delusional to think I could ever be successful with this little photography endeavor? Am I knowledgeable and creative and talented enough? Yikes!!

I've just been second-guessing the heck out of myself for the past week. Since I "went public" I've scheduled a handful of sessions for the upcoming month... and that's so unbelievably cool! I'm stunned, really. I've been really devoting the situation to the Lord, asking for His guidance and approval before I really take off running. But I've learned that sometimes you have to step out in faith a little bit. You know? And I think I have. Oh, I don't know. I guess I'm just insecure. But I know that I'm doing my best to go where He leads. And for my part, I'm giving it all my gusto.

those snot nosed kids

2011-08-29T11:45:00.005-05:00

My two little guys have had coughs, green snot, and the like for the past few days. Thank you very much, preK. Oh well- part of childhood. But they both seem to be doing fairly well. Zeke likes to spend quite a bit of his time these days reorganizing my kitchen cabinets. He's a fantastic helper. He's so proud of himself when he "helps" me. He sits on the floor among his conquests and squeals while trying to open boxes and packages and dump out their contents.

Elijah isn't letting it get him down either. He spent every waking moment this weekend busy and enjoying the perfect weather. Uncle Keith and Aunt Paula are up for a visit from Texas. He thinks Uncle Keith is either Santa Claus or Jimmy Buffett. That one's a close call.

He has been really letting go of all things fearful when it comes to swimming. Saturday afternoon he went from going down the little orange slide from the patio to the water, to going down head first, then upside down, then backwards, then up off the picnic table upside down and backwards. Plus he now lets my Dad throw him "all the way up to the trees".
All in all, I think they are handling the illness just fine. :)

First Day of PreK pics

2011-08-24T21:19:00.003-05:00

I am about to present to you a fact, which I think only a mother can truly understand.

Little boys who are excitedly anticipating something so momentous as the first day of PreK do N.O.T. pause for even a millionth of a second to allow their mothers to press the shutter button. Any images which show eyeballs in the direction of the camera are strictly coincidental. If you don't believe me, check out all the other Moms who posted face.book photos of their kids on the 1st day of school. It's true!

the obligatory standing-in-front-of-the-bullitin-board picture.

Mrs. Miller's PreK class

This is the Way We Go to School...

2011-08-22T22:52:00.004-05:00

My ~~baby~~ big boy had his first day of PreK today! I don't have the emotional stamina to write a heartfelt post about how this is making me feel, so here are the facts.

We decided on a different school than I mentioned before since that one didn't start until much later. His teacher is Mrs. Miller. There are 6 kids in his class and they only go half-days, 3 days per week. So it's not too much. He was SO ready for this! He was over the moon excited about it all weekend. When we got there we waited in the foyer for the bell to ring (how cute is it that they have a bell?) then I walked him downstairs to his classroom. He didn't even want to hold my hand on the way there. I made him though. I explained that Mommy needed it. After he walked through the door of his room he never gave me a second glance. Of course, I forced him to stand next to the cute bulletin board and smile for a scrapbook photo. Then he was off checking out the new surroundings, and telling his teacher he thought he needed to sanitize his hands. And that's it. Not a single tear shed (by him).

When we asked him later how it went he replied, "Oh Grandma, it was awesome!"

I'm afraid I'll jinx it if I say it out loud.

2011-08-22T22:07:00.011-05:00

I almost don't even want to mention this, but it's searing a hole into my brain and if I don't get it out I'll go nutzo. By the way, I don't really believe in jinxes. (Is that the proper spelling?... jinxes or would jinx plural just be spelled jinx? anyway.)

You know that a few weeks ago I took some family photos for my friend Shelley [posted here and here]. I posted a few to face.book and got several people ask if I would do their family's too. Of course I agreed. So yesterday I took some for my friend Samantha. After posting some of my favorites to face.book again the response I got was crazy - wonderfully exciting, and slightly surprising! I have been asked by 5 more people to set up sessions in the near future! Plus, most of those people mentioned that they have other friends or family who are also interested! I know, right? I'm still shaking my head. I did not solicit this "business" or even really advertise the fact that I would/could do it. But somehow the word spread. And it's so much fun! I'm thrilled and astonished that anyone would wish to pay me for something I love to do.

I'm wondering if this is a "God thing", you know. The kind of providence that "happens" upon you. Or coincidence? But then, I don't believe in coincidence. Maybe just dumb luck? Nope, I don't do luck either. Well, shoot. That settles it. I guess I'll just pursue this photography thing and see where it leads. If nothing else, I will enjoy doing it. And maybe a few people will be blessed by the effort. I say, bring it on!

"Whatever you do work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as your reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving." ~Colossians 3:23-24

P.S. I've added a photography page link (up there on the top). Check it out!

Fetscher Family

2011-08-21T23:04:00.003-05:00

I met yesterday with the Fetscher family - Jason, Samantha, Dayton, Jaycee, and baby Wyatt. They were so much fun to work with! Thanks guys!

a shift

2011-08-19T09:57:00.017-05:00

I think the bitter-sweetness of motherhood is watching your baby learn to gain independence. I realize this is a natural part of life, but its also taking its toll on this Mommy. While my sentimental side wants to hold tightly to him and never let him grow up, the practical side loves to see him thrive in his autonomy. This great paradox is that my job is to teach him to take small steps out from under my protective sphere into his own, yet my nature is to restrain and shelter him forever.

Still, he needs me... no one else can comfort him quite the same way when he's hurt, or scared, or sick. No one can answer the big questions of life for him, like "Is it called Friday because you're supposed to eat french fries?".

In the afternoons, as I watch him play and hear his constant chatter, I inwardly beam at the wonderful "big kid" he's becoming. While at night, after he's tucked under his soft blankie, I'll sneak into his room and snuggle up next to him, grasping at the tiny remnants of toddlerhood that are now barely recognizable.

On Monday as he walks through the door of his new classroom, meets his new teacher, and sits down at the table with his new friends, I know he won't sense the shift that happens. But I will. I'll hope that he's just a little bit sad to be there on his own without me. But I'll also be rooting for him to shine in his new environment. He's going to excel in school, I just know it. He's so bright and witty [I'd like to think he gets that from his Mommy]. I think he'll adjust wonderfully. I can't wait to see how he grows and learns this year. I just hope he doesn't get too big to need to sit on his Mommy's lap from time to time.

p.s. Yesterday he learned to climb a tree all by himself.

Our 12th

2011-08-16T12:22:00.008-05:00

My sweet husband took me out on Saturday for an anniversary date. We dropped our boys off with my parents, got back in the car and just sat there for a second, relishing in the silence and peace. What a glorious 3 hours we had to ourselves! We dined on pasta, lobster, salad, fish and couscous. We took our sweet time and enjoyed conversation which was not once interrupted with the words "Mommy, I need..." or "Zeke, get off that..." or "Can somebody help me...".
We strolled lazily along the aisles of Target and TJ Maxx, where Manny bought me a new purse and a HUMONGOUS bag of s.bucks coffee! It's the little things, you know. Our alone time is so rare these days. I have come to really appreciate something as simple as a drive in the car without chatter or whining from the back seat.
Don't get me wrong, I LOVE MY KIDS. But I also love grown-up time with my husband every once in a while. I'm so thankful we had the opportunity to celebrate the 12 years of marriage we've ~~endured~~ enjoyed. ha ha. It makes me all the more recharged and ready to go another round with those crazy boys of mine. :0)

Hitched

2011-08-14T12:39:00.005-05:00

12 years ago today Manny and I said our vows and promised to be united together as husband and wife until death do us part. No matter what.

And I'll be the first to say that these 12 years have not all been roses and sunshine. No, we've had our share of trouble, fights, tears, regrets, and pain. But we love each other. We are committed to sticking beside one another even when it hurts, as we made a covenant that day with each other, and more importantly, with our Lord.

There have also been times of tremendous overwhelming joy... like the arrival of each of our precious sons. And the day to day companionship of having someone by your side whom you know you can trust without a shadow of a doubt is priceless. There is a sweetness that grows over the years, even if they seem monotonous and mundane. There is a sense of stability and belonging. And there is always a sense of love, even in the midst of the hardest days.

Even as I look back on all our mistakes and hardship, I can't regret choosing to spend my life with him. I am so thankful for my lifelong partner, companion, and friend. I know having Manny in my life is a gift from God.

I look forward to watching how we will grow closer as the years continue to pass --a sweet, steady pace of aging and learning to love.

{August 14, 1999}

(more) Ferrell & Corn photos

2011-08-11T18:18:00.014-05:00

Here are a *few* more of the kiddos from last weekend. Baby Anna, big sister Izzy, big brother Isaac, cousin Collin. All gorgeous little faces!

Izzy

Anna

Isaac

Collin

What a wonderful family!

reunited

2011-08-09T11:30:00.000-05:00

A few years ago, Lori was reunited with her son, who she gave up for adoption at birth. Since then, God has been so gracious to them, restoring their lost years and giving them a beautiful relationship. Lori's celebrated her birthday last week, and as a gift her family wanted them to have photos taken of everyone together. After seeing these she expressed to me the tears they brought and how much it means to her. In a way, these are symbolic of what the Lord has blessed her with, despite her thinking that all was lost. A few years ago she never would have believed such a family photo was possible. I'm thrilled I was a part of it.

Unfortunatley, all my favorite shots were on another disk. You'll just have to settle for my non-favorites. :)

F O U R

2011-08-08T12:28:00.014-05:00

Here we go with eleventy-billion photos from Elijah's big #4 birthday!
Naturally, he woke up bright and early -- ready to go downstairs and open presents!
He got a yellow race car, a super-soaker water gun, peanut m&ms, & lots of markers.
Then it was off to donut bank on our way to church.
For some chocolate milk and a chocolate donut with chocolate icing and sprinkles for my 4-year-old. He wore his birthday crown all day!
After church we went to my parents' house for more fun.
And more gifts.
He's holding up 4 fingers. :)

He got a cool cement mixer from Grandpa!
A kick-board from Aunt Michelle.
Lot of swimming!
{"the Grandmas"}
Uncle Gary & Cousin Zoe.

It was a gorgeous day! Only 90 degrees.
We had a blue Thomas rainbow cake.
It kind of cracked from the humidity.
But Elijah LOVED it!

And it tasted good. The spoils. Molly liked it too.

John Deere front loader from Grandma Gloria in CA!
Book from GG & Ppa.
John Deere movie.
Other gifts he got were: a Toy Story race track, a Cars outfit, Thomas swim trunks, another kick board, 2 big water guns, water balls and a frisbee, pencils, markers, paper, a writing board, yard darts, Bash (a train from Misty Island) with 2 other freight cars, a little take-along Bash, a pick up truck hauling a road construction sign, a Cars "learn to read" book, & goggles.
He went skinny-dipping. Because you're allowed to do that on your birthday. That's why they call it a birthday suit.
Great Grandma & Grandpa Funk.
Uncle Jacob & Kate.
My boys and me. :)
I really love these 3 guys.

Our friends came over later.
Landon, Levi, & Elijah had a blast!
Levi isn't one bit camera-shy.
We swam until after dark. What a great time!
Elijah had a wonderful birthday - full of fun, special friends, family, swimming, and gifts. He thought it was epic. I thought it was exhausting... & really fun. And I still can't believe my baby is four.

The end.

BIG weekend!

2011-08-08T09:04:00.007-05:00

We had a busy weekend so I have tons of stuff to talk about this morning. Here goes.

I'm working on getting Elijah enrolled for Pre-K at Sacred Heart (A little late? yes!). It will start in September, which I much prefer over this craziness of starting in the middle of the Summer! He can't wait! He keeps asking if its September yet.

Yesterday Elijah turned 4!!!!!!! That's another post in itself.

Ezekiel cut 2 more teeth yesterday... the bottom left lateral incisor, and the upper left lateral incisor. The bottom right lateral incisor peeked out on 7/28. That makes 8 now.

Manny is starting back to work today after being gone since April. (Hallelujah!!!)

I did a "photo shoot" for a friend and her family on Saturday. So much fun! It was a birthday gift for her mother-in-law. I'm very pleased with how the photos turned out. More importantly, they are all thrilled with them so that makes me feel really good. I'll post a couple shots later.

I'm planning a very special top secret anniversary gift for Manny. We'll be celebrating 12 years on Sunday. I bet you would never guess what it is in a million years! I can't even believe it myself!

Does anyone still read my blog? I know it's just for me anyway, but I just wonder.

RAW photography! Say what?

2011-08-05T11:29:00.004-05:00

I have officially discovered the fun of shooting in RAW format. What the heck took me so long? I nearly passed out from the awesomeness of it the first time I reviewed the photos!

Now, can someone please explain how to edit in RAW? I have a feeling that's where all the magic happens.

He's got skillz

2011-08-05T09:48:00.012-05:00

Oh, I've just gotta share. It's like a switch flipped on with my Ezekiel. This has been a big week of achievements for him.
He's doing lots of new stuff, like:

waving bye-bye

clapping

playing catch with Daddy

singing "e-i-e-i-o" along with "Old McDonald"

saying "uh-oh" after he intentionally drops something

saying "uh-uh" when I tell him no or when he does something he's not supposed to

playing peek-a-boo with me behind the shower curtain

signing "all done" after a diaper change or meal

feeding himself with a fork

holding his breath when I practice taking him under water

climbing all the way up the stairs (been doing that for a while)

climbing on stools

climbing onto the coffee tables (how????)

dancing (kind of a knee-bounce)

playing the baby piano

His current favorite foods are:

yogurt

strawberries

hot dogs

rice

beans

scrambled egg with cheese

peanut butter & jelly sandwich

pizza

peas

zucchini

blueberries

applesauce

cheese

pasta salad

blackberries

grilled cheese sandwich

popcicles

peaches

watermelon

Current dislikes:

cantaloupe

broccoli

Other favorites:

cuddling with is soft blue and brown blankie from Grandma Theresa

pushing cars & trucks back and forth across the floor (or any object for that matter)

chasing Annie and trying to put his hands in her mouth

watching "World Music" Baby Einstein movie

laughing at puppets, especially "Wolfie" his new one

messing up whatever Elijah is playing with

swimming

taking a bath

swinging

messing with Annie's water and food bowl

Oh yeah, he also gave up the passy about a month ago- all on his own. And he's weaned now.

I took a walk.

2011-08-04T11:24:00.002-05:00

and this is what I saw.
shady
parisite
welcome
weathered
home tweet home :)
chores
resiliance

Who is this boy?

2011-08-03T23:46:00.000-05:00

Honestly, I don't recognize him any more.
I may or may not be in denial that he's turning 4 this weekend.
Stop
growing
up
so
fast!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh, changes.

2011-08-01T08:41:00.001-05:00

You may recall that I announced a little over a month ago that my little Zekers had decided to wean himself. Well, I take that back. At the time I thought he was finished nursing because his interest in it was being replaced with curiosity about everything else in the world. But I just really wasn't ready to close this chapter quite yet. So with some persistence on my part we kept it up. At that point he was down to just morning and evening nursing.

And then a few weeks later, partly for the sake of time in the morning, and partly because he wasn't interested, we cut back to just the bedtime feeding. I realize that by that time it wasn't for his nutrition as much as it was for bonding and the emotional connection we shared. (Which I know from experience would never be the same after he weaned.)

So up until a few days ago we had our nighttime routine of rocking, lullabies, and nursing my sweet little one to sleep. Then the other evening as I was settling into the rocking chair with him in my arms he wouldn't snuggle up to me as before. He wanted to sit upright and put his head on my shoulder. He wanted me to lay him down in his bed before he even dozed off.

Plus there is the teeth situation. (If you know what I mean.) 5 of them, with 2 more poking thru just yesterday.

Nursing my infants has been one of the most rewarding parts of Motherhood for me. It a role no one else can fill. What a wonderful feeling to know you are nourishing your child in the way that God designed your body to do. A truly precious experience. But now he's gaining so much independence that he hardly even needs his Mommy any more.

I know its not true, but I feel as if by this change I'm losing my "baby". I find it sad that my job as a Mother is to let him go... one milestone at a time.

Too Big for His Britches

2011-07-28T11:00:00.001-05:00

Mister Zekers. Oh goodness, where to start? Having just turned a year old I guess he's decided to grow up in a hurry all the sudden. Over the past week he's been pulling some real stunts around here!

He discovered how to open my Mom's back door and escape to the porch. I'm serious.

He then figured out how to crawl through the doggie door to get out of the enclosed part of the porch.

He can hold his breath and go under the water.

He kicks to motor his little self around when he's wearing the float.

When asked, he can give the sweetest kisses. But only if he's in the mood.

The other day he crawled over to touch the night light plugged in the hallway outlet. He knows better as I've told him 'no' 100 times. When he approached it he reached out to touch it, then turned to look at me, shook his head and said "uh-uh" with the same intonation I use when I tell him no. Oh yes, they can learn what "NO" means at this age!

I came in the living room recently to find him crawling around on the coffee table. How did he get up there? Why did he not fall off and bust his face?

Speaking of busted faces... on Friday night he fell down just 1 step on my parents' deck and got his first fat lip. Sad day.

The next morning he cracked his head against the bathtub faucet and got a nice knot.

He knows how to climb stools to reach things that are too high for him. He did this yesterday to see what I was doing at the kitchen counter.

He loves to stand 6 inches from the TV, holding on to the entertainment center and watch kid shows with his mouth gaping open.

He loves puppets!

He got his first haircut last weekend and I really miss his soft baby locks.

Post Edit: Zeke went to see Dr. T this morning and weighed in at 22 pounds, 12 ounces, and is 30 1/4 inches tall. (That's 50th and 59th percentile.) He also got 4 shots- poor sweetie- he screamed his lungs out at that mean ol' nurse.

The main reason for our visit though, is a concern I've been having with him. I had noticed a few months ago that sometimes, at random, he has an involuntary spasm, or what I call a jerk movement of his head to one side. He sometimes repeats the movement several times. Although I've noticed it frequently when I'm feeding him at the table, I've seen it when he's playing or just exploring around the house too. So I don't think it's any one situation in particular. It happens at all different times of day too. I considered that maybe it was triggered by being sleepy, or having an ear ache (because he tends to jerk it as if to touch the ear), or frustrated, or even trying to shake his head to say "no".

So the doctor checked his eyes, ears, muscle tone, reflexes, spine, feet, hands, and all the other important body parts for any visible problems. She asked me lots of questions and gave him a good once-over. Her conclusion is that he's perfect. His muscles and reflexes are healthy. He moves the way he should. She thinks he might do it when he's excited or intense. Or maybe it could be a habit that he'll outgrow. Either way he looks fine. And that's what I needed to know. We'll keep an eye on his development and make sure the spasms don't get worse and aren't accompanied by stiffness or flailing of the limbs.

p.s. I noticed the very tip of one more little tooth peeking out on the bottom this morning.

Long Lost Friends: Part 2

2011-07-26T10:46:00.004-05:00

My friend Jeri came all the way from Plainfield to visit us and swim for a while yesterday with her 2 kiddos. Well, she actually stopped by on her way back from Holiday World. Jeri and I worked together for 6 years when I lived in Indianapolis and I haven't seen her since the day I left. I can't believe it had been 3 years!! But getting together made it feel like no time had passed at all. Elijah had a lot of fun swimming with Kate and Luke. I just hope another 3 years don't pass between our visits again. It sure was great to catch up!

{sorry the photos are so small, click on them to get a bigger view.}

Long Lost Friends: Part 1

2011-07-25T12:04:00.003-05:00

Long, but not lost.

There are only a few people in my life with whom I have kept in touch since elementary and high school. On Thursday my boys and I got to visit with Courtney, her son Briley, Jilli, and her sweet girl Mia while Jilli had some time in Evansville. Boy, I've missed both of them! I love that the same girls I used to run around the playground with are now bringing their own little ones to run around with my little ones. What fun! It was kind of like stepping back in time, seeing Mia. She's a duplicate of her Mommy... so girly, so full of energy, so adorable. And Briley, oh don't get me started! Those lips! Those baby blues! That laugh! Our kids played their hearts out. I'm so glad we got to spend some time together.
Thanks for coming over, girls!! Let's do it again soon!

Surgery for Manny

2011-07-24T11:03:00.000-05:00

On Friday my husband got sliced and diced. Ok, not really but I like how that sounds. The operation took only about 1 hour and I got to take him home that same morning. He's recovering pretty well so far. His injured hand may or may not be fixed now. The orthopedic surgeon was great and everyone at the surgery center was very nice.

Dr. Johnson told me that when he went to look with the scope he didn't find anything torn or broken (GREAT news!), but there was some inflamed tissue around the bones in the wrist. So he removed that tissue, attached a bionic arm, stitched him back up, and sent him on his way. Ok, he didn't get a bionic arm either. But wouldn't that be cool? In stead, he got a big ol' cast (which has since been taken off).

The unfortunate part is that the procedure didn't necessarily guarantee that he'll be pain-free now. His medical opinion is that the inflamed tissue was the cause, but there is no way to be sure until it heals. So we wait. Poor Manny. I know he's sick of being broken and ready to get on with life and back to work.

{I took a picture of Manny in the OR but it's on my phone and I have no idea how to get it off of there. I'm technologically challenged.}

that figures

2011-07-19T12:21:00.005-05:00

My husband is scheduled for surgery (orthoscopic on the right hand and wrist) on Friday morning. I was reading the paperwork last night about what to do and not do prior to surgery, you know to be prepared. They talk about taking medications, what to wear, not to eat after midnight, etc. And guess what's on the top of the list... DON'T GET A COLD. Well, it doesn't exactly say not to get a cold. It just says "Contact your doctor immediately if you get a cold or cough." Evidently it can affect the anesthesia process.

So wouldn't you know who came down with not just any cold, but a MAN COLD. The dreaded MAN COLD, which can debilitate them at a moment's notice. Which can render them completely helpless and in need of their Mommies. Oh yes. The MAN COLD, which causes all ability to care for one's self to cease and diciest. You're right if you guessed Manny.

Super. Just perfect timing.

Buzzed

2011-07-18T12:40:00.003-05:00

Sad was the day when we said goodbye to all that long fluffy baby hair.
He looks like such a big kid now. I already miss the mohawk.
{sniff sniff}

His Birthday Was Just Beachy.

2011-07-16T11:44:00.011-05:00

{click on photos to enlarge}

{Better late than never, right?}

A week ago my sweet Ezekiel Joseph celebrated his very first birthday. We had a beach themed pool party at Grandma and Grandpa's. We decorated with all sorts of beachy stuff like pink flamingos, colorful hanging paper lanterns, tropical looking birds and palm trees. And I used cute sand buckets and shovels to serve the food.

I even endeavoured to make a sand castle cake, which turned out pretty cute (if I do say so myself). I baked a layer cake and covered it with brown sugar to look like sand, then put little beach toys around to decorate. Of course Zeke had his very own chocolate smash cake with Grandma's famous soft chocolate icing.

My boy is such an eater that I was really surprised when he didn't dig in to the cake. It might have been all the pressure of everyone watching, or the fact that he was several hours late for his afternoon nap. I had to help him along a bit. Then he got all cake-faced and cranky. After which I had to spray him down with the hose and give him a good cuddle to help him recover.

Of course there were gifts... a talking Hallmark book from GG and P-pa ("On The Night You Were Born"), an adorable embroidered Birthday Boy t-shirt, beach towel, and another matching hat and t-shirt from Great Aunt Mari, toys from friends, trucks from Grandma Theresa & Grandpa John, a dolphin Pillow Pet from Grandma Debby, and a lighting-up-singing-truck-thingy from us, money, among other things.

He had a great time at his party! Also, I took a couple photos. :)
I cannot comprehend that my BABY is a year old. It happened toooo soon.

give me a big smoochie woochie

2011-07-12T21:57:00.001-05:00

I find myself using silly baby talk with this kid on a daily basis.
ie. "I want to kiss your facie-wacie off you little pookie bookie bear."
or "Come here you little sweetie-pie, honey-bunny! You're so sweet I could eat your face."

It's not my fault. I can't help it if he's so doggon adorable.

104.5

2011-07-12T17:30:00.005-05:00

My poor Elijah was lethargic for almost two days. He complained of dizziness and a headache. Of course it was after midnight the first time I noticed his high temperature. It was 101.9 on Sunday night, so I gave him a dose of fever-reducer and he did fine the rest of that night. But Monday morning he woke up, got a drink, and went back to sleep until after 10 am. That's SO not like him. The rest of the day he just layed around watching cartoons.

Then yesterday afternoon when we went to swim at my Mom's house he didn't even get in the water. He fell asleep on Ragon's lap. When he woke up he asked for Grandma Gloria to come make him feel better. He told her he was sick. I took his temperature then and it was 104.5 before the thermometer even beeped. He spit it out of his mouth before it had the chance to finish. But I knew from just that. We needed to get to a doctor quick.

Of course it was after 6:00 so we had to go to the urgent care center and wait an hour. But it could have been worse I guess. Turns out he has an ear infection and needed his first ever round of antibiotics. The fever broke and in just 24 hours he's feeling almost back to his normal cheery self. Now he has to keep out of the pool for 48 hours (24 more to go) and take the medicine for 7 days. Poor baby boy. He was so sweet through the ordeal. I love him so much. I hate to see him feel bad.

One Year

2011-07-09T18:25:00.000-05:00

I am truly astonished that in three-hundred-sixty-five short days, my baby could have gone from this...

to this.

Sometimes I hardly see the resemblance at all.

A year ago I had no concept of the love my heart could hold for another baby. Now I could never imagine life without our sweet Ezekiel. What a blessing he is! He is so different from his brother; such a unique personality. I love the little boy he is becoming. I am thankful beyond words that God knit him together in the wonderful way that He did and decided that I should be his Mommy. What a privilege. What a joy. He is the apple of my eye.

Happy first birthday Ezekiel Joseph. I love you.
Love,
Mommy

Company

2011-07-08T08:00:00.000-05:00

Manny's parents are here visiting us from California. They arrived Thursday morning after taking the red-eye. We'll have them for a week! Yippee!

So far we've been keeping very busy, running around, planning and putting together Zeke's birthday party, and all kinds of eating. I'll post more about it later, with photos.

For now we're off for another fun day. :)
It's BLAZING hot hot hot! The temp today is supposed to be 99 degrees, with a heat index of 110. Sounds like some swimming may be in order.

4th of July Photos

2011-07-05T11:22:00.003-05:00

It's been busy around here. I don't have time to blog about it all, but at least here are some photos from 4th of July.

this guy was juggling fire on the street!

My boys LOVED the fireworks. Zeke's mouth hung open in amazement the entire time.

We had a fantastic view... right up close, on Reitz hill.

out of focus and dreamy.

The End.

Oh, hey. We had VBS.

2011-06-28T21:09:00.004-05:00

I almost forgot to mention, 2 weeks ago... or was it 3? We had VBS at church. Gold Rush was the theme - Discovering the Rock of Ages.

Yeah that was a fun week, which I was none too sad to see end. I was placed in "charge" of the nursery and photography. Yikes! Seriously, I don't want to do that ever again. The nursery part, that is. Soooo many babies at their bedtimes. Not enough arms and rocking chairs to make them happy.

Nevertheless, my Elijah had a great time! He just may have been the cutest little cowboy in the west.

{enter my finest southern draw} Now, I reckon ya'll might like to see a few photos. Yessiree.

yee-haw.

The "Miners" class, 3-year-olds, led by Mrs. Beal.

Craft time.

Lined up for recreation. Playing train - what else is new?

Elijah got to be the Engineer on their pretend train. Score!

They quickly became distracted and derailed.

Which, turned into a race to the end of the field.

As they raced back, they all fell into the same hole one by one. {far left} I'm still wondering why, by the time the last one came to the hole, someone didn't go around it. It looked like a sniper was getting them one at a time. Very entertaining.

They remind me of little chickens...

gathered around the mommy hen.

Snack time was fun. Tiny dixie cups of apple juice brings back such memories of my own VBS days as a kid.

Saying a prayer before snack.

His FAVORITE part, making me a picture frame!

You can't tell, but he was very proud of it.

I took 12 shots of this group.

And not one of them captured every person looking in the direction of the camera.
What's up 3-year-olds? Step up your game!

The End.

Ya'll come back now, ya hear?

Each one unique

2011-06-28T09:43:00.007-05:00

{My boys: each at 11 months old}

I just don't think they look very much alike, other than the dark hair and eyes. Isn't it interesting how two totally different kids can come from the same parents?

Zeke has a lot of Jost (my Dad's side) in him... his dimples, hairline, face shape, ears, the way he loves to eat, his gusto, short temper, and strong will. But he was lucky enough to get his Daddy's big mouth in stead of my tiny one.

Elijah takes after the Jones side (my Mom's side), which I'm seeing even more in him as he gets older...the shape of his face, his body type, his attention to detail, the way he stands with his hands behind his back, the dimple under his one eye, the way he loves order, his problem-solving skills, his hard work ethic, his disinterest in food, his busyness.

I love them both so much and in such different ways. I love to see how they were each designed by God to be distinct people, with unique affinities and physical characteristics. I am beginning to understand that as they grow up, they will probably be in frequent conflict because of their personality differences. But that's just a challenge and opportunity for us all to learn to live together in love and tolerance.

I hope they know what a gift it is to have each other. They can be the best of friends for their whole lives.

we swam anyway

2011-06-27T20:24:00.002-05:00

Chilly water, rainy days...
We don't let them get us down.
We swam today anyway.

First Dips

2011-06-27T11:37:00.010-05:00

The temperature only reached the low 80's on Saturday, but my parents didn't let a little thing like that stop them from taking a dip in their BRAND NEW POOL! The water was a nippy 65 degrees so they didn't stay long.

It's not completely finished yet. Today the guys are coming out one last time to hook up the pump and filter (you can tell in the video that the water is murky), treat the water, and install the retractable cover.
Now... bring on the hot Summer days! I'm ready to SWIM!

Driver's Ed?

2011-06-27T09:59:00.004-05:00

Nine years ago I was at work one morning when my mother called me in a flood of agitation and outrage with a confession. My brother had done something particularly moronic. She was so furious with him that she intentionally used her car to smash into his car in the driveway - then pulled forward - backed into it again - and then again a third time.

Four years ago, on a hot July afternoon, our truck was parked in my parents' driveway behind my Mom's car, which was parked behind my brother's truck. My mother wanted to move my brother's truck so she backed it into her car with such force that her car hit our truck and pushed it 10 feet backward. All three vehicles were extensively damaged. Our truck ended up being in the shop for almost a month!

Three days ago my car was parked in their driveway when Mom wanted to leave in a hurry. She was watching the garage door go down and didn't even realize she was backing out at an angle. The front fender of my poor Honda never stood a chance.

1 driveway + 1 driver + 7 wrecked cars = Maybe Mom needs to reevaluate her backing up skills?

Pool Construction: Day 14 (continued) & 15

2011-06-26T19:07:00.003-05:00

After the liner was in, Elijah got to be the first to put water in the pool.

It took 24 hours to fill up.

After about 8 hours we could wait no longer...

The 3 of us got in to give it a try.

The water was icy cold and Ezekiel was mad because he wanted to play with the hose.

Day 15 (last day)

Mom and Grandma worked hard all morning to plant a lovely flower bed near the pool.

Dad was the first to brave the freezing water. He claimed it "wasn't bad".

Yeah right! It was 65 degrees!
He did cannon-balls and a back-flop. Mom jumped in for a second too.
Then it poured and poured rain. Not our preferred way to spend the first official pool day. But whatever.

Pool Construction: Day 14

2011-06-24T10:40:00.002-05:00

Well, today is a BIG day!

The liner is in now.

It's going to take a while to fill it up and be ready to swim, but boy oh boy, we're getting close.

Pool Construction: Day 13

2011-06-23T22:03:00.003-05:00

Today my Grandma came over to enjoy the construction festivities too.

They finished the concrete around the pool and patio.

Elijah made his little hand prints in it, with much persuasion on our parts (some might call it forceful coercion, since he's OCD about getting his hands dirty).

Apparently, while I was at work Elijah got to help drive the trackhoe.

Then he had plenty of work to do with his Tonka trucks.

{p.s. In case you wonder what happened on day 12, it wasn't much to take pictures of, so we skipped that one.}

Rule of Motherhood #392

2011-06-23T21:24:00.008-05:00

Do not allow yourself to be fooled by the sense of peace and complacency that may come upon you when your children are happily giggling and squealing from the bathroom. Just because they aren't fighting doesn't mean all is well.

Good news: They do like each other after all.
Bad news: 3 inches of water on the bathroom floor and a change of pjs.

Pool Construction: Day 11

2011-06-22T11:14:00.003-05:00

June 21st

Another load of gravel was delivered and distributed around the perimeter.

Half of the patio was poured and more framing was put in place for tomorrow's delivery of more cement.

That long gap in the cement will later house the automatic retractable cover.

Also, Elijah requested that I take his picture in front of the Bobcat. So I did.